(tell me how big this world is)

I've been constantly finding the meaning in living which make me realise for the past 15 years I've been living in vain . Have been keeping myself at home , feeling mundane . It doesn't really sound so bad as am able to relax and enjoy the peace and mull over my life .

Anyway , i cannot keep myself too free . I wanna lead a busy life , occupy all my free time to stop myself from thinking more before i go crazy .

peace ,